So I will have to admit the last couple days have been tough. And when I'm sad I don't like to talk to anyone, all I want to do is watch a good movie and eat junk. Not such a great idea when I'm trying to lose.
I'm out of the initial shock and into 'this is really happening'. This is my life- 6 months without my husband. There are some wives in the squadron who have done this 12 times......12! I know this won't be the last for us either. Tom told me the other day he is really thinking about staying in. We've juggled the idea around since day one but I think he's ready to commit to a life in the military. And I'm ready to support that. Even in this great state of missing him.
I've been trying to keep busy. I mowed the yard- I think I want to hire someone to do it next time. Our yard is freakin huge and it's all weeds. The heat index has been in the double digits which is not ideal mowing conditions for me. I had to do it though- some weeds were up to my upper thigh. I started on Sunday and got the back done. Yesterday I mowed the small ditch in front and I still have to do the rest of the front. Screw this husband being gone thing. I also took the trash and the recycle to the dump. We take our trash ourselves because living on an island means $60 a month for someone else to do it. I also 'scooped the poop'- I know, gross. But all these jobs are ones T usually does. Or we do together. Good thing I'm not a lazy person. The house would look horrible when T returned. I do feel a sense of accomplishment though. And an attitude of 'I CAN do this'. I just need to keep my head up.
My sister is going to be here next Tuesday! Yay! After she leaves it will be one month down.
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I commend you for being absolutely supportive of your husband, even through the sadness. You guys have a great and true love! That is very refreshing and remarkable these days.
Go, Alison, go! I feel for you, and if we could mail you a freshly-mowed lawn, we would.
This is bound to get easier, I think. Maybe not before it gets a little harder, but in time. Hang in there.
Thanks guys for all the support! It really does help!
If you get really lonely after your sis leaves we will come down, but you don't have to talk to us :)
Jan
I would love that Jan! You can come down every weekend if you want. :)
You're so sweet baby. I appreciate everything you do. I miss you like crazy.
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